The Stranger blog post # 2

I've never read a book like this one, The Stranger begins with this man going to his mother's funeral and does not mourn at all. And his life seems to be dull because all he really does is observe and doesn't really live his own life. At times I try to understand this man, what are the real motives for his actions and the way he lives his life. But then he does something that just confuses me all over again. What i do understand is that he seems to find nothing meaningful but when he was younger he did have dreams and goals and ambition. I wonder what happened that made him this way?? What I found interesting was his relationship with others like his mother, his neighbors, and Marie, because his relationships with these people did not seem real or deep. Most of them were just random people or people he really didn't know well. i beliieve something in his past made him very detached with others, or maybe he fears opening up to others but he doesn't seem to mind hearing other people's even those outside his life like the man in the newspaper article. What i found significant was his relationship with Marie because he told her that it didn't matter if they loved each other, they could still marry. why would he say this? Does he not believe he can love another or is it because he is afraid to love another. But he doesn't seem to have a problem with having sexual desires for her especially after he gets locked up all he can think about is Marie and cigarettes. What I found interesting was the amount of times he would talk about the heat throughout out the book like when he was in court. He is asked why he killed the man he says the sun. In the end where he is told that he is to die he summarizes is it as " I was to have my head cut off in the public square in the name of the french people." He doesn't really give it much importance, like he doesn't even care he will die. When asked of his beliefs religiously, he says he didn't believe in God, he didn't give it much thought and found it unimportant. Even religion and death he find meaningless like nothing maters anymore not even his own life. this man is a strange man and I say this because at the end of the book he says " I had only to wish that there be a large crowd of spectators the day of my execution and that they greet me with cries of hate." what kind of person would wish this, what caused him to be the man he is?? This what i think of the book so far.